Celebrating God, family and life through the good times and the challenging times. I welcome you to my little piece of the world. I'm random, opinionated (some say), imperfect but loved by a perfect God, saved by grace, a little vain at times, a senior citizen but as a friend of mine recently said, aging like 'fine' wine. lol Married to a wonderful man since 1976, we have two grown sons...a few grandchildren. I love to laugh...but I've done plenty of crying...this is part of my legacy...
Friday, December 16, 2011
CHRISTMAS: OUT WITH THE OLD
else ever feel a little blue around Christmas. It's not that I am
overcome with sadness. It's just things are changing...and I am not
comfortable yet with the shift. Transition, change always brings about
mixed emotions and it seems like the last 15 yrs have been nothing less
than a roller coaster. This is our first Christmas where my husband and I
actually feel like empty nesters. I had a hard
time even getting in the mood to decorate. Our home is oddly quiet.
It's the first year that we did not have a child to help us pick out a
real tree (our granddaughter has gone with us since about 2yrs-3yrs old
she is now 8yrs) and it's the second time in our married life (35 yrs of
marriage) that we have had an artificial tree. I am missing the sound
of children...I am missing the 'family' feel. We are no longer the focal
point. I think about big families...and how it was when I was growing
up...aunts, uncles, cousins, moms, dads, babies, children...the sounds,
the food and the fun. I miss my granddaughter, and barely know my other
granddaughter...and I have two step grandchildren...soon. I miss my son
in the Navy. You should have heard me cry and grieve when our son went
to the Navy about three years ago. With change often comes grief, and
learning to do new things and learning to let go, learning to forgive,
learning to cope with health issues and life issues, learning that I
can't control everything that happens to me or my children or loved
ones, but I can learn to let go and let God mold me, shape me, and keep
my heart from becoming bitter and old and hard. So, even at this time
when I'm feelin' a bit blue...I'm also feeling an expectation and a
hope. This I know from experience: I CAN trust God my future is secure
in Him. He's never failed me even in my weakest moment or lowest point.
So, I am pressing on and pressing forward...accepting change and
learning to embrace life to the fullest, looking forward to what God has
for me in the future, letting go of the past, it's disappointments,
it's sorrows and pains and unmet expectations...and like this song
says...it's a new season, it's a new day...a fresh anointing is flowing
my way, it's a season of power and prosperity, it's a new season coming
to me. I've been tried by the 'fire' and I'm coming out...I have just
begun..the best is yet to come!
Isahiah 43:19-21 19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. 20 The wild animals honor me, the jackals and the owls, because I provide water in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland, to give drink to my people, my chosen, 21 the people I formed for myself that they may proclaim my praise.